ewald apperle

Just got home from work, let your mind wander for a bit, the last rays of the evening sun cast long shadows from trees and buildings, the birds seem to sing with their voices to bring about a cooler evening. Today, however, it won’t get cooler until very late; it’s still 30 degrees in the shade at 7:50 p.m. The first real summer night of this year is approaching, how wonderful, I think to myself, back when I was a teenager there were summer night festivals in the village where I grew up, with music and dancing. It feels like an eternity. Back then there was more often warm, nice weather for swimming and hanging out with friends at the lake or in the forest. Later, it occurs to me, after training, starting a family, integrating into the world of work (as a programmed “system-slave”), there were hardly any such beautiful summers anymore, or I simply had them in these forty-seven years of work didn’t „notice“ – had no, or little to no, time for summer, sun, sunshine?
Work-life balance hasn’t been around for so long and hasn’t really been around for me yet, but I know how I fit into this „reality“ and how I „play along“.
I rock a little and stare at the sky, almost like when we were lying on our backs in the grass, chewing on a blade of grass, laughing and being happy. I must smile at these thoughts, I still feel joy now, just thinking about what we came up with, interpreting the cloud images…. Just now I saw a cloud that looked like Fuchur the Lucky Dragon and a little pink cloud over there like a teddy bear. Now there are no more clouds, and they are changing quickly, dissolving into nothing. My gaze now wanders over the landscape, it always delights my eyes and mind, it feels so good to see nature, the colors, the growth, this miracle*. When I see this picture, my heart feels light, and I forget about the work. *As so often, I can’t help but think about where this, my journey in life ultimately leads.
What is “after”? After body and mind, separated? and does the way of my life (this game in this reality) – do it justice? Am I good, is my soul ready to experience something higher? I don’t know, I just know that I still have a lot of work to do, experience the truth in this body in the time that I have left.
Every day, in the evening, I evaluate myself to see where there is still a need – I haven’t been doing this for very long. With age, thoughts and attitudes change, nature has done this cleverly, it is like this for most people as they get older. (our brain, our biological computer, accumulated with experience, then recognizes things that were accepted without any doubt as true and given at the beginning of the “game” as incorrect, as untrue and replaces this with our own ideas…)
As a teenager and later, I could hardly imagine thinking such thoughts, but now it seems to be the most normal thing in the present.
Your thoughts are adapted to your age; you only see and understand it when the time comes.
It is beautiful! Yes, it’s very nice to be able to enjoy this „life“, (the time in the physical body), as much as I can, and I wish everyone that they have this positive attitude and joy of life. (Awakening).
It never hurts to work on the „beauty of the soul“ in addition to the beautiful life.
There is an order that created everything in this world, including us. None of this can be a coincidence, it’s impossible! We must not allow chaos, untruth and the hooking of our brains to destroy this brilliant order. © ewald apperle